BEAUTIFUL

beautiful body for sale but
dirty like your toes in open shoes
reach inside
find answers unattended
your mouth wink and whisper
in the name of god
betrayal in the name of love

my rage lingering on the tortures
of your tongue
how i defended my name lover
a soldier standing guard
over the wound that is your heart

that wound opening and closing
a thatched door
whose rusted hinges croaked
and fell that winter in Cambridge

how you came and came
like a rag doll limp and unmuscled
fell into my lap
your disease of desire
growing bigger and bigger
like your ego

like your name
three names for each season
summer wicked winter
what are your colors for spring
such beautiful hair
with fingers like pencils
tapered and long for holding cigarettes
not me

the yard has wild daffodils
yellow with hope
where is your hope

you once said imagine life with no sun
now i see.